How Did Death Note Save My Life?

 Hey there,everyone! And today,I am here to talk about how Death Note saved my life. 

So where do I start? I was only 8 years old when the Death Note anime came out. As a 3rd grader,I begun watching it with my parents since I was mature enough for a little kid and i'm used to English and these type of stuff. There was nothing wrong with that. I grew loving it. At school,I was allowed to read the manga without problem. I started watching Death Note every morning before and after school. Seeing Light Yagami being Kira and writing down names in the notebook made me want to become just like him. I thought to myself that this would be my goal: To become Kira. To do what Light is doing. And,that's what I was exactly doing. I've made a homemade Death Note by myself and showed it to my parents. They were proud of me for it. I told them I wanted to achieve my goal to become like Light and be a hero for the good of humanity. They believed in me,thinking I could do it and make my dream come true. They said ''If Light is your hero,then we're sure you can succeed him one day and make him proud of you.'' Ever since that goal of mine,I wanted to be called Light Yagami,just like the character. They said that it was fine. The next day at school,my class were having a test or something. I wrote my name as ''Light Yagami'' because I thought it would be fun. However,my teacher believed it and literally called me ''Light Yagami''. Yeah,it worked! But it turns out that she like Death Note too and been watching the anime as well. I had a good friendship with my teacher due to that. I also brought my Death Note with me to school. Well,to wherever I go. I never got in trouble for that either. I've start to secretly write names in my Death Note so I could achieve my goal. When I arrived home from school,my mom told me to turn the TV on. There was an episode playing and then,there came a very special character that I would later be attached to. Who am I talking about? It's none other than L himself. Before I talk about him,I need to tell you about my past before I discovered Death Note.

                                      My Past:

Before discovering Death Note,I was a lonely child. I had no one to talk with or to play with. I was always bored. My cats often scratch me for no reason at all and even on the nose,causing me to bleed. I used to have band-aids on my nose because of that,which was awful to say the least. My dog ran away in the woods and was eaten by a bear. I was always at home. My parents used to both work. My babysitter was my cousin and he was my only friend. Everytime I felt upset,he would draw me a pokemon to cheer me up. I was always a quiet and calm kid,always shy or timid at school. I was always in my corner because I hated noise and I could'nt focus or concentrate well due to my condition. You see,for those of you who don't know,I have a rare condition known as Microcephaly. I was born with it because my mom used to be a smoker. I have a small brain,but doctors said that it's like a computer because I was actually pretty smart and intelligent for a kid with this birth defect. I thought it was a weird compliment. You see,my brain works differently from a normal person's. Even though i'm 22 now,my mind works like a 10 year old child. My brain size isn't normal like any other normal person's due to it being small. When I hear too much noise or can't focus on something,I get a headache or my brain has nothing to do to respond so I get stuck to my own bubble. Most of the time when there is too much pressure with my mind,I feel like my head want to explode. Doing school work,homework or doing a test is really frustrating because it takes me forever to respond to a question. Even math frustrates me because it's really hard and I tend to have temper tantrums because of that. I have learning disabilities thanks to this. It became really clear that I was a special need child. What's worst is that I get blamed for all of this. No matter how much I tried to reason with them about my problems,they think i'm being a bad girl. I'm always misunderstood and often get mixed messages. I had anxiety ever since I was very little. My parents used to fake call the police and lock me outside until they come for me whenever I misbehave. This made me fear of the police. I hated doctors because of what happened to me back when I was 7,but I don't wanna talk about it because this traumatized me for years. When I was 5,my school separated me and the only friend I had from school. They've put us in separate classes. Him being in first grade and as for me,I stayed in my kindergarten year. They never allowed me to see him except outside at recess where I would secretly go and play with him in the swings. He's Autistic and was the only person who cared about me. Unfortunately,they took him away from me for a bad and stupid reason. I thought to myself ''Where is the justice?'' After discovering Death Note,I knew it would help me end my suffering.

                        The Aftermath:

I'm sure you wanted to figure what happened after. Well,I'll explain all of it. Every day at school,I take the name of Light Yagami. It was like persona. However,people started laughing at me for choosing to be called like that. And I started receiving death threads from them because I was supposedly Kira. I went to the director's office to explain the situation. Then,I saw L on TV. Him being a detective and the way he is,this gave me courage to not give up. He was my source of inspiration. He became my idol. I've decided to become a detective just like him one day. I moved from being Light/Kira to be Detective L. One time,my parents saw me sitting just like L on the couch. They said this was a miracle that I could do that. They asked if I want to become L for a change and I accepted. I wanted people to know that I changed. I grew up acting like L. It's thanks to him that I ate sweets and cakes. He meant a lot to me. At school,I sat like him for the rest of the year and everyone called me L. I got back the respect that I wanted and I was glad.  For Halloween,I cosplayed as L. I was the cutest kid thanks to this. And one day at recess,me and my friends found a water puddle and I was dared to go and play in it with them. I hesitated of course because I knew we should'nt be doing that. The leader of the gang begun teasing me and then.. Something happened. An invisible force punched the kid to the ground. I was confused at what happened. I didn't understand what's going on. The surveillance lady came and blamed me for punching the other kid,which was'nt true. But hey,it was better than nothing. I rather get blamed for it instead of arguing further anyway. When the bell rang,I found a black feather on the ground and picked it up. It was I realized that I knew that it was'nt a fever dream. This feather,it must have belonged to a Shinigami. I had a new goal in mind: To find the Shinigami. I've talked to my parents,my classmates and my teacher about it. They believed me. My teacher said this feather could've belong to Ryuk. At home,I've made research and,she was right. It did belong to Ryuk. I tried real hard to find Ryuk and thank him for saving me back then. It was thought but after my long journey,I did it. I found him. I really found Ryuk. He approached me. I showed him the feather. Recognized it,he told me I could keep it as a souvenir. Knowing I had my Death Note with me,he said I was the only one who could see him. He asked if he could stay by my side. I accepted. Returning him,I introduced him to my parents by making them touch the Death Note. I wanted to keep him as a pet and they said yes. Ever since,me and Ryuk were the best of friends. He was always by my side. Always. I gave him apples every single day. Now let's get moving on to L again,shall we? Again like I stated earlier,he was the whole reason why I sat like him and encouraged me to eat. When he died,a huge part of me has also died. I could'nt even believed it. At first,I thought he was simply faking his death and would return in the next episode as a plot twist. But.. Instead I saw Roger at the Wammy's House telling Mello and Near that.. L is dead. I cried so real hard. When my parents were wondering why I was crying so loud like this,I told them the truth and they began to cry too upon hearing the tragic news. Fictional character or not,I believed in him. I believed he was with me throughout the years. It's really hard to say goodbye to him and even to this day. Nobody could've replace him. He was my everything. He made my life better. He made me be who I am today. I still don't give up on my dream and still didn't give up on it. He was very precious to me. He was very important for me. I got depressed for a whole month. I got suicidal. I wanted to jump off. My classmates still referred me as L. To them,I was him. Then,I met Near. I had a strange feeling. My heartbeat was fast. I thought it was'nt possible. Yet,it was. I felt like L actually didn't left me and I was right. He didn't technically left,but he sent Near to me so I could move on. Near is like a guardian angel to me. I started playing with my hair after he did. My mom noticed and decided to call me Near. I literally shattered and cried the second she called me that. But those weren't sad tears. They were happy tears. Thanks to Near,I got my motivation back. I ended up not killing myself. He saved me from potential death. He made me happy when i'm down. I was relating to him. I've shared similarities with him. I had school afterward. My teacher asked me why I was playing with my hair. I told her that it was because I saw a new character on Death Note named Near and I quickly grew attached to him. Hearing that,she called me Near and she smiled. Later on in December,she wanted to talk in private with me and she gave me something very precious that I should keep and to never lose it. It was a heart pendant and inside was a picture of Near. I cried and promised to keep it. She knew she wanted Near to stay with me. And she was right. He did.